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Haunted hayrides are awesome! 

But I was called a girl in the haunted house. Called the actor a mother fucker after he called me a girl the second time. He got all whiney that I said the f-word. 

My friend pulled me away down the hall. I was ready to punch the actor. I know I shouldn’t get that way. But a sorry dude would have done a lot better then whining that I cursed at him. I didn’t curse at him when I corrected him the first time. I figure he earned it. 

I don’t like people…

Just because someone uses proper pronouns doesn’t mean they accept you

My boyfriend, who supposedly fully accepts me, said to me last night that he does something different then I do because hes “a man”.

I left shortly after. Because I couldn’t handle it and didn’t want to be bitched at for “overreacting” again.

Just so tired…

30 Day Trans Challenge Day 11

Wow its been a while since I did this. But I’m gonna continue with the questions, even if it wont be done in a month lol.

11: How do you manage dysphoria?

Um badly. I have been going through a lot more since the boyfriend thing seems to only treat me right when I’m packing and binding. He tells me that he’ll work with me on changing the female parts. So I’m pretty messed up all the time about how I’m acting, if its right or not, if I look right or not.

But for the most part, while I’m at home and alone. I’m fine. I’m me, and I’m happy with what I have because I know I can change it. I can modify my body. It will be what I want it to. I’ve already done many minor mods to it, it will handle the major ones to come.

Thats enough to keep me going for the majority of the day.

So at work today some old lady came in to get her hair done (why women constantly come back to a MENS SALON and insist on having our best womens stylist I really don’t understand) and ended up asking my name. I told her the nickname I use. She freaked out that its a “guys” name. So I told her the full female name and she kept calling me that, including when I’d walked away to go do my fucking job and clean up some shit that needed it. I told her I only responded to the nickname, if she needed me for whatever that calling me the full name wouldn’t work, I haven’t responded to that since I was in grade school. She wouldn’t stop. Then told a coworker that I was rude for not responding. I told her again that I don’t even respond when my parents call me that name and don’t make any exceptions. 
She didn’t care. She wouldn’t fucking stop.
My full first name isn’t even on my fucking name tag! My nickname is on my name tag, on all my business cards and written in large block letters on my station mirror. Bitch didn’t care. She wouldn’t fucking stop.

I almost punched an old ass women today.

I fucking HATE working as female… /rant 

Fixing Binder Problems

So yeah. I do this a lot. I have a double front underworks binder that I modified to be more like a tri-top, and is now epic.

But I have one from lesloveboat. Its a high front, velcro side, can’t remember which one it is to be specific. It’s okay though because I’m pretty sure this is a general problem with all binders like this.

The seam on the right side of the binder, so opposite the velcro, is two sperate seams, one from the inside layer and one from the outside, both facing each other. But that’s it, they face each other, they aren’t attached. Okay so what does this mean? This means that the stretchy fabric of the back and front of said binder allows for extra stretch and less binding. With mine I notice it taking a curved shape, making for more boob shape and less flat man chest.

So heres what I’m gonna do about this: Stitch the damned seams together! It’ll help give it a stronger bind. I also had to attach some extra velcro to the side because while it fits it’s just a touch too large so a small strip of extra velcro fixed that.

In my quest to make better binders I end up fixing issues on existing models. Go figure. lol. Hope that made sense to anyone who reads it.

30 Day Trans Challenge Day 10

Okay so I finally have a moment to try and do this again!

10) What are some of your fears in regards to being trans?

Never passing. Ever. Never being seen as male by anyone other then my dearest friends. If I don’t pass I’ll always be misgendered. If I don’t pass I’ll never be able to work as the person I am, raise kids, go out to eat and be treated right.

I’m not worried about being beat on, I can take care of myself. I’m not worried about being verbally attacked or made fun of, that happens everyday without fail for everything else I do and am, one more thing wont really matter. I’m worried about never being able to go to the fucking store without being ma’am’ed. I want to just blend into the background as a normal dude without being bothered, questioned, anything.

I’m worried I’ll never be able to be myself without explaining who I am first.

Trans Haircuts

So I’m copy and pasting this from another blog but I did write this. It’s on a LGBTect blog that I’m part of.

with the new job and the free topic this week I thought I would address a topic I see a lot. Getting your first trans haircut! What I mean by this is the first haircut you get when you’re trying to pass as your target gender.
So this might not fully apply to all the genderqueer folk out there, I’m sorry for that but most people in the world are going to read you as male or female so this is going to deal with being addressed, reacted to and what to expect when being treated as male or female.
 So let us begin!

What to expect:
So lets start with the basics. When you go in to a salon you’ll give your name, wait for your stylist to come over and greet you and head to the chair. Give a name your comfortable using, something that fits your gender identity.
Now you’re in the chair. What are you there for? What do you want done with your hair? As you doing a clipper cut and going super short? Semi short? Long hair with some layers?
If your brought a picture this is the time to show your stylist what your goal look is, discuss how they’ll be going about it and what you really want.

For the Gals:
Your hair will either be washed or just sprayed down with a water bottle before being cut. At the end, unless you don’t want it styled it will be blown dry and styled for you. Products will be recommended for the health of your hair and continued up keep of your style. Its all a pretty easy process. Sit back, enjoy some chatter or read a magazine.

To the Men:
If us guys are getting our hair washed it comes at after the cut most of the time. If you’re getting a clipper cut it does anyways. If you’re doing a longer style it’ll come before or you’ll be sprayed down like the gals. But it’s a lot of the same. You’ll pick your style and get your hair cut. If your hair is short your back neckline will be cleaned up. It’ll either be squared off or rounded. Square is the more modern adult style while round is younger more often then not. Most people don’t care. If they ask what you want feel free to pick one or just tell em whatever.
Sideburns will also be cleaned up. They’ll ask you how long you want them, ect. Cleaned up is a perfect answer. They’ll make sure that they’re even, there aren’t any stray hairs far off from your hair line, simple things.
And from there its all the same. Enjoy the styling, product education and chatter. It’s a simple process.

To bring a Picture:
I already told you when you’ll be showing your stylist your picture if you brought one, now lets think about if you should or not.
Pictures are awesome! It gives me a bases to say that I know for sure what you are telling me you want, I can ask you more questions about length, blending and styling and generally, you will leave happier.
Don’t feel like a dope. Just bring the picture, its for the best!

I don’t know!:
So you want a mens/womens cut but you don’t know what you want? Your goal is to say, pass better but what to do?
Ask your stylist! If you want a typical mens/womens cut just ask for that. From there they will discuss length with you, styles, your life style and help you find what will work best for you! Stylists have been trained in all sorts of things that will help them give you advice on what will work best for your face shape, your daily routine, coloring and all sorts of things you might not have even thought of. So have some faith.

Where to go:
There a whole host of places you can go. Small chain salons are always safe. They’ll get you in and out in twenty minuets for your cut and little more for extra services. These are great to go to for a new style and stylist, someone who doesn’t know you and you can start a relationship with as yourself.
The disadvantage to these salons? They don’t have as much time because of how they’re run to spend time with you to meet their timing goals. This doesn’t mean they wont take the time, it just means they might seem a little more pushy to get answers out of you.
A higher end salon might have more time and seem more personal but that isn’t always the case either. They have timing goals as well. Once you have a style you like and would like to maintain it, maybe add color, then go to a “high end” salon if you feel comfortable there. Otherwise, it more or less doesn’t matter where you go. So long as your visits are as yourself you’ll be treated right and leave happy!

I’m sure I left a whole crap ton out. So if there are any questions or other topics for me to touch on let me

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Working As Female

So tomorrow I start my first day of work at a mens salon. We’re a full service sports salon with TVs at every station.

I work in a team of 5 girls as a girl. Why? Because salons like this don’t hire men. They want cute girls to flirt with the guys and get more guys in.

I HATE working as female. But money is money. And its the only way to afford T and living. I just kind of find it funny then I’m working in a salon like this to be able to afford my transition.

Such is the life of a trans guy I suppose.

Make homemade binders, post about it, go ignored

one person makes one binder once, everyone raves.

Sometimes I wonder if people only like to take advice from person friends. Even if they don’t have half as much knowledge. 

/confused sorta-bitching

I’ll get back on the trans challenge thing. When I’m not so bloody sick I can’t think right.

30 Day Trans Challenge Day 9

9) What is something positive about being trans?

This is kind of a hard question. Its like asking if I’m proud. I mean I am, it’s just not the same as like… Gay pride.

It takes a lot of courage, love for yourself and self knowledge to be honest and do whats best. And those are some of the best parts. I know I’m strong, I know that I know what’s best for me and what I need and I care about myself enough to do whats best for me in regards to transitioning.

I mean, it’s hard to sit around and not ask myself a hundred “what if”s in regard to if I’m doing the right thing or not but every time I do the answer I come back to is always the same. I’m doing the right thing, I’m confident in this.

I have a sense of self that “normal” people don’t have. I’ve analyzed myself in a way “normal” people don’t. It’s fantastic to know yourself so well.

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